I was born into a muslim home where sunnah prevails with the right understanding of the aqeedah. On Sept 3rd, 201*. Abu called his children that we will soon be leaving Kaduna to settle in Lagos thus our education continues henceforth. On the day of our departure, friends came to say goodbye wishing us a safe trip to our abode. About a week prior to the day we arrived Lagos. Abu enrolled us to an Islamic school and education continues perfectly.
School was going on well, while exams was fast approaching. I suddenly remembered the need for me to have a copy of a textbook our Physics teacher had recommended for us to get. After returning from school that day, I called Abu to tell him of the situation of things and he made it known to me how he was broke and didn’t have enough money to give. He therefore asked me to borrow from my friends and in the meantime if he has the money, he would give it out to me.
Now exams is fast approaching still I’ve not seen someone who can offer to borrow me a copy of the physics textbook. This is not because I have a bad attitude but simply because I was the shy type who never talked in class. I made a move to stand up when I saw the Class monitor gestured out to me a copy of the material I’ve been dire in need of. His name is Ahmad and was also not really a sociable person in class. I thanked him and asked on when to return the copy back to him. He however told me he had a copy of his too. I was so glad and hopefully when I returned home I told Abu of the material Ahmad had given to me. Abu was happy, after all he told me to read the book and assimilate in preparation for my exams.
Two days later, I was home alone when the home landline rung. I rushed to pick it up “unknown number”. Behold it was the Class monitor. He made the Tasleem and I responded, I asked how he got the number and he told me he saw it in the school file. He further told me he was sorry for calling and that he had misplaced his material and would be glad to have the copy he had given me back. He also made it known to me that he was sick and would have come to have it by himself. I informed him Abu was not at home and I couldn’t leave the house without his permission. After a lot of pleading and considering the fact that He was sick I told him I would come over to his place to give the material back to him. I locked the door to the house and unfortunately for me I had forgotten to write a a short note incase Abu came back early. – No, I would be back in a short time. I whispered to myself.
I knocked on the door to his house and he came out. He gestured for me to come in but I told him it will not be possible to do so. His mother came out greeted me and persuaded me to come in. The only reason i had entered their house was because I couldn’t decline the mother. She seem so nice as she talked to me like a mother does to her child.
After spending some time at their home, ,I checked my wristwatch and saw that it was getting late. I told Ahmad’s mum I would like to go home and she had beckoned on Ahmad to bring her bag in her room with the impression of giving me money for transport fare. I declined telling her that I had enough t-fare with me. Only if I had known, i would have collected it. She thanked me and baded me goodbye telling me to place a call by the time i had reached home .
On getting to the junction where I would see a cab to take me home. I unknowingly put a hand into my pocket and amiss my money wasn’t there. How come I remembered placing the money on the chair when I was in a haste. I felt so bad for not collecting the money Ahmad’s mum had offered to give me. Now I could not go back, so I decided to walk down home despite the distance . After walking for quite some minutes, I heard the call to Maghrib from a nearby masjid and decided to stop by to perform Namaaz. It was getting dark but still prayer is inevitable. I entered the Masjid, performed my solat and made my supplications. I left the Masjid immediately and was on my way home.
I decided to pass a shortcut which would lead to my house in nothing less than twelve minutes so as to get home earlier before Abu returns cos I never called to tell him I would leave the house. With fear in my heart while supplicating to Allah Azzal Wal Jalal. I passed the street which was covered with thick bush while walking in a haste.
On my way, i had met two hefty men walking behind me and I paced faster. Suddenly, I was grabbed by one of them unconsciously and i could not shout as they held guns and sharp knives to themselves. I was lured into one of the uncompleted building and was lost of my pride as a woman thereafter. After they committed their misdeeds, they left me telling me to leave only after they gone for long or else they would not hesitate to slaughter me.
Now, I feel so shameless, as hot tears came dripping from my eyes. What have I done to witnessed this? I knew I have sinned against my creator. I never told Abu I would leave the house, I’ve sinned against Abu. Definitely I have committed zina. I arrived at home and met Abu looking worried. He queried why I left the house without informing me, which I haven’t done before. I couldn’t help myself out by crying as I told Abu all that had happened. I couldn’t look at him for fear of His wrath.
-And for the first time after Ummu died. I saw Abu weep uncontrollably again. He held my hands and he quoted”
Allah says in the Holy Quran Chapter 39 Surah Zumur verses 53-54:
(O Prophet) say: O My servants who have wronged their own souls. Do not despair of Allahs Mercy! Surely, Allah forgives all sins. He indeed is the All Forgiving, All Merciful. Return to your Lord and submit to Him before the scourge overtakes you; for then you may get no help from anywhere.
Allah says in the Holy Quran Chapter 3 Surah Al Imraan verse 135-136:
Allah likes such good people very much, who, if ever they commit a base deed or wrong their own soul by the commission of a sin, remember Allah instantly, and ask for forgiveness from Him for their shortcomings. For who, but Allah, can forgive sins? (And Allah loves those) who do not knowingly persist in the wrongs they did. These will be rewarded with forgiveness from Allah, and with Gardens beneath which canals flow, and they will reside therein forever! How excellent is the reward of those who do good deeds!
Allah says in the Holy Quran Chapter 25 Surah Furqaan verses 63-71:
The (true) servants of the Merciful are those who walk humbly on the earth. When the ignorant people behave insolently towards them, they say, Peace to you; (And those) who pass their nights in prostrating themselves and standing before their Lord and pray, O our Lord, save us from the torment of Hell, for its torment is killing! It is an evil abode, and an evil resting place. (And those) who, when they spend are neither extravagant, nor miserly,but keep the golden mean between the two extremes.
(And those) who do not invoke any god but Allah Alone, nor kill a soul unjustly, which Allah has forbidden, nor commit adultery He who does this shall be punished for his sin, and his torment shall be doubled on the Day of Resurrection, and he shall abide in a state of ignominy; EXCEPT THE ONE WHO MAY HAVE REPENTED (AFTER THOSE SINS), AND HAVE BELIEVED AND DONE RIGHTEOUS DEEDS. For then, Allah will change his evil deeds into good deeds, and He is very Forgiving and Merciful. In fact,one who repents and does righteous deeds, returns to Allah as one rightly should!
Written by Raihanah Bint Abdul-hakeem ❤